Life

How you know what is good for you?
Who actually is your true friend?
Who actually you can rely on when you need advice?

What path/ decision to make when you are in dilemma/confuse?
What life you think is the best to head to
What is your life going to be in 10 - 20 years time?
How/ who is your life partner going to be?
How to forsee what is going to come?
How to spend time efficiently on work and personal life
How not to hurt people you love while you just want everyone to happy including yourself?
How your life going to be when you are retired?
Who will be the person going to be there when you are old, defendless and weak?
Who is your soulmate?

These questions in my head everyday eventhough I'm busy working, at home or sitting infront of the TV. My mind keep popping these questions in my head repeatly. It does feel very tired. I wish to turn back the clock and have my best friend at my side but we cannot turn back the time. We just need to move on even though it is very lonely path I'm walking right now. Nevertheless, I do hope my best friend is happy and having a wonderful life out there. Missing him as he has good heart but not missing the fights moment with him for years.  I cannot be selfish right now as I have make the decision of not becoming selfish on my relationship eventhough I have hurt everyone along the way, including myself and my dearest friend. He does not know how much I really love him if compared to the others in my life, yet I letting him go as it is too hurt to try further.