promises

We promises to clear the air if we have any doubts anything and clarify what happen if not sure the truth of the story. That was also more than 1 year ago. After some my friends said I was a person love to flirt and hang around with young men.

After fighting for days, mentally drained. Eventually he mentiond the story and never say who said it. But confirm it was truth as it was 2 people mentioned the similar thing. Therefore it was 2 against 1. After days of heated arguments with both of us exhausted. He eventually told me the assholes created the story about me. The fight impact us deeply but I could not believe we wasted our time arguing over a stupid story and my friend prefer to believe the assholes than me. It was a big blow to me about how much of trust he had on me. It was zero of trust.

The level of knowing me also Zero even we know each other for years. It was a BIG dent inside my emotion as we have waste our time argue over a stupid story.

After this event, I thought we promise we will come clean and clear the air as soon as we have any doubt. He was the one who make both of us promise.

But last week, he forgotten the promise and we fought again over stupid trust issue. I am very angry till now. After what we have promise, he return of not trusting me. The hurt is unbearable as I feel so dissapointed. What is the use of the frienship if ur friend always using stuff to attack you over other conversation.

I feel so hurt and dissapointed till now. My fren has a different mindset from me. It is so hard to tell what I really feel from my heart. Letting go a friend is easier than feeling betrayed. I feel betrayed, but he think he is the one being betrayed. Therefore the story is continue as I'm the problem. Let it be as all of thing truly childish and waste of time.

Why argue when I just want to act like mature person. If a person want to argue with me, I will walk away. Enough is enough.