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Eventually event will turn nasty. It is something forsee when one is too emotional and I'm being such an idiot to let it prolong for such long time pretending things will turn better eventually.

After years, things never change better but stagnant. I do not want to convince myself that it is my fault and if I see the other person point of view only. Then why am I feeling sad and constant need to understand others when one do not respect my privacy and personal life as how I would like it to be. I do not disturb your space or your friends but why you want to intrude mine? No long worth to continue argue and fight till I die. Is this type of life worth to live?

I do not want a friend who cannot accept who I am and let me be who I am. Who constantly paint me as a negative image when things do not go smoothly.

I just want to live my life as I want it to be.

That's just a simple request, am I being greedy? What is happiness? Where to find happines?