CRAPPY LIFE (Being denial no more)

I am who I am, Do not try always to fix me as if I am broken need constant repair/fix. Do not constantly pointing to me that I need your help and guidance.

I love who I am and I love my life as it is.

Happiness comes from within ourselves. IF you try to make someone miserable like you are doing repeatly onto me. Please stop it as you are way too old doing this. I'm fed up of trying to mend this situation for years and I do not want to waste of my remaining time on convince your wild conclusion perception of me is wrong. After 10 years of arguing and senseless fighting which lead to no way. I have given my time and energy for many years and I'm extremely tired and done with it. My health is not as fit as I am young and I do not wany any crap/shit thrown at me when you feel like it.

You go your way. I go my way. As I do not think this type of frienship ever be any positive as it is only temporary positive but always bring out negative energy to both of us in the end all the time.

I do not want lie to myself anymore that everything will be normal in the end. I also have no energy to convince you that I'm just a plain person doing plain stuff. If you constant throwing accusation of what bitch I am when you demand attention from me and expect me to tell you where I go constantly. I do not need to face this from ANYONE including you.

I am way pass my 20s and do not need to be treated by you like I am 16 yrs old constantly. I do not need all this crap further. THIS IS NOT HOW LIVING SHOULD BE AT ALL.

If you cannot respect my personal life and space without intruding. Please intrude your own partner life and space. I do not need all this shit from you at all.


Please do not lurk at my home to check where I am and tell me what I am doing. Thanks but I am aware what I doing therefore I do not need you to hide yourself to see what I am doing. You constantly gone to far. I dont know what to call this type of friendship. Is this stalker type? I know you think it is no stalking at all.

I write to keep my sanity as I rarely speak out my problems to anyone and I normally will keep everything to myself. This is only place I normally release my frustration and sadness as I do not expect anyone will understand what I feel at all.

I just pray and wish that my life will back to normal and peaceful as possible as minimizing man-made drama as little as possible.